133 days ago

3 days ago was in Perth, always wanted to fly away from all the problems that I’m facing the previous semester, its was a bad semester I should say, from the day that I arrived (2nd August 2004) things begin to happen 2 me, I wouldn’t want 2 say out what had happened to me for the past 4 months when I was in Perth, it was really bad that at one point I thought of commit suicide. I remembered, at that time I phoned a friend of mine back in Malaysia and told X that I really want to die, why the hell all the big problems come to me!!! Why am I facing all these problems, and why can’t it get better??? Back home in M’sia, my friends didn’t concern or help me out but they criticize of my thinking at that time and said that im a very problematic person. How the hell u control your emotions and feelings at that stage? Look at it if you’re in my shoe. Another point, which a doctor prescribes me Lexapro escitalopram, medication for depression and obsessive compulsive disorder OCD, not many people knows that I was in a state of depression and that doc gave me that medicine. How will feel when some people make jokes or fun out of that? At last I refuse to take that medication. Those are the least problem that I faced.

I flew back to Malaysia on the 20th November 2004, no 1 pick me from the airport, my family was back from Europe earlier that day, so I took a limo back. Worried that things will happen back home, wing hol messaged me, while im on my way . It was raining that afternoon, hoped that everything will be fine.

Bad Friday I would say.....

holy moly day for da christians, but not for me ... y? cos whole Australia was in da state hibenation... or better word to describe.... dead. if u want to visit western australia during good friday 2 easter monday, i advise u guys to cancel your holiday plan. it will be ur worse holiday ever if u travel during easter season. All the shops will be close; no alcohol to be serve at 12 am till the next 2 morning, which means no pubs or clubs open, (cant even buy any alcohol); no entertainment, that includes cinema, concert, band and even gaming casino kena close.. i think theres a weird ruling tat today, ppl should stay indoor and be holy... alcohol traders will get fine when they trade for the day.......

so nothin much 2 do that day, rot for da whole afternoon and wait to go teong's open hse. the usuals are there... making noises, craping and drinkin...... my alcohol this time tak laku... cant even finish 2 chivas, 1 vodka n 1 mudshake. only ken, colin and me drank most of it... others damm potong steam.. we plan lots of activities 4 day next day, goin wind surfin at swan river (my idea not bad huh), picnic and swimming at cottesloe, just hope that the weather will be nice.... want 2 go sun bathin

Brand new start??

its week 4 of school, and I was a little bit left behind, especially my Japanese class. Sometimes cant really attend jap lectures cos time crash wit my design class... so which 1 is important? obviously design la... so when i attended some tut for jap, i was lost n confuse, everyone in that class know how to read hiragana and the vocabulary n i was like.....oh shit... seriously need 2 catch up during the easter holidays.its weird that i began to read architectural books and think of the design of my building, cos i never be that serious in working on design. i went to culture lecture today, as at lot of my friends know that i always skip that boring lecture, but dunno y i attend, somemore less than half of the class were there... clean my room for the 1st time today, since i came bak perth a month ago, eheheh just lazy 2 unpack my luggage and arrange my books. i felt kinda weird after all that and i find it difficult to explain how i feel for the whole day, its a good thing, maybe this is human revolution?

anyway, met up jess, teong, cherry, ken, josh, morr n chris for evening coffee at Farrells, its like almost every single day hang out together, i enjoyed having them everyday, just that.... i will miss all of them when i leave curtin for other uni this june......

i think that there's something in me that changes me for the day n i hope the good changes will stay. hope some ppl will notice this.......
will work hard and smart no matter how my life goes.... ...


will post up my europe photos, and the storries of the past soon

Back 2 perth

stopped blogin nearly 4 months... basicaly im bak 2 this bloody aussie city of perth.... just got my adsl bak after payin all stupid fees for da net provider and also bank, the bank over here charge me $45 X 3(months) for dishonor fee, which means da net provider get da money out of my account n while at da sametime i left my account $0.00, so the bank charge me... bla bla bla... not only that, i was charge by the net provider and have 2 pay 100 bucks for connection fee.....well, after everythin is settled, i have 2 wait for 1 week for my net 2 reconnect.... see how slow australians doin their job.... not only that when i phone da technicians, they pushes me around, the worse thing is i have 2 call them b4 5 eastern daylight saving time...aka sdyney time la..

anyway, im glad that im bak 2 my perth lifestyle. For the past 4 months, i gone tru a drama, which left a scar deep in my heart, a drama or a tale that i will never forget for the rest of my life, this tale, widen my eyes on people around me, made me stronger than b4 and most of all, taught me a lesson, a lesson that ..............

the main person in this story is no longer himself, but a person who still in the state of disappointment and sad. follow this story of a young kid on how he lost his trusts on ppl around him..............

will post da story when i get them...soon